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Sigmoid Colon In November 2017, a routine screening colonoscopy revealed colon cancer—an unhappy surprise in anybody's book—and I had my sigmoid colon removed in December of the same year by a very talented colorectal surgeon.

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Pathology showed that the cancer had spread into a few of the local lymph nodes: I had stage 3a colon cancer, and chemotherapy was indicated for me in early January. Happy New Year!

This is the story of my journey from a patient's point of view with things I wish I'd have known at the time. At all times I had good medical care, but there were all kinds of things that would have improved my day-to-day life; I'm hoping to share this with you.

I cannot emphasize enough: this is not medical advice. I am not qualified to do anything other than tell my own story, and at Every. Single. Point. you must defer to the judgment of your medical team. My advice is typically practical, not clinical.

This is also based on my own personal circumstances, which may not match yours; I'm a 55 year old male, in good health, with no prior family history of colon cancer, and receiving the FOLFOX6 chemotherapy regime. If your regime is different, your health is different, your oncologist is different, your infusion center is different, or if you are not me: your mileage may vary, though some parts may still apply.

In addition, each infusion center (and oncologist) has their own protocols and procedures, so even if you're on the same drug regimen as me, it might not play out the same way.

What I also have going for me was an exceptionally positive attitude, superb insurance, a very deep bench of friends, and of course a wonderfully supportive wife. I'm self employed, which gave me great flexibility with errands and naps.

As I write this, I'm on chemo Round 11 (of 12), and I'm not sure I could be any more lucky.

Update: July 2018; I'm now through all my 12 rounds of chemo. Whew!

Disclaimer: Throughout this note I'll provide links to many references to Wikipedia, and in some cases to specific recommended products at Amazon.com or other vendors, but I'm not selling anything and don't get referral/commission from anybody.


Preparing for your journey

Everybody has their own habits and coping mechanisms, and in my case, as a voracious consumer of science, I empowered myself by diving deep into the medicine and chemistry of cancer, pretty much geeking out on details.

Though many of the details really did help me understand what's going on in my body, making sense of a side effect, many of the technical details were little more than bar trivia tricks, as there's nothing you can usefully do knowing that (say) 5-Flourouracil is a thymidylate synthase inhibitor.

But even those who don't have the interest that way can still help themselves: the internet is a wonderful resource for those going through this, and Google will be your friend.

Cancer support websites abound, where you can find out that others are going through the same thing as you: this goes a long way to not feeling alone.

However your personal inclinations, I can offer a few pieces of general advice.

Journal / Keep good notes
I keep a file on my computer, and I make notes virtually every day, and this has been incredibly useful.
Initially I made notes of every phone call I made to a doctor or insurance carrier while setting up my surgery and planning for the oncologist: This is really helpful in case a provider is dropping the ball.
That kind of phone-call detail may not come up so much once you settle into a groove with chemo, but it's then that you need very good notes on how you're feeling, what you took, how side effects are going, and all that.
If you're going through 12 rounds, you really want to identify patterns, especially the cumulative side effects. Being able to tell your doctor that the yuck started to wear off on Day 5 but the neuropathy hung on until the middle of the "off" week means they will give you better care.
Going to your doctor with a good record of your symptoms is important.
Bring somebody with you to the first oncologist appointment
There's so much information to learn, you simply cannot keep it all in your head even if you take good notes and the doctor explains well and gives handouts. It's just too much.
Having a spouse or a friend means they will remember things you don't, and will ask questions you didn't think about. This is so, so useful.
Educate yourself from reliable sources
The internet is a mixed bag of information: some great resources, and some not so great, and it can take some digging to sort it out.
Personally, I have a strong (but informal) background in science and have a very good BS detector, so I'm able to easily separate the good data from the nonsense.
And there's a lot of nonsense from all kinds of crackpots, including those proposing that amazing watermelon cure from Mexico where you can "detoxify" your way to being cancer free.
One I'll call out by name to avoid is Food Babe: she has a great talent for hyping an entirely science-free position into bad advice. My blog post on one of her screeds shows how to think critically, and hopefully will fine-tune your own BS detectors.
Dr. Oz is also to be avoided for any kind of medical advice unless you're looking for snake oil.
You'll also receive well-meaning advice from friends that it's all a conspiracy by Big Pharma and you should never let them put that poison in you, instead opting for holistic remedies. This opinion is often delivered passionately and entirely in good faith.
Cover of Emperor of All Maladies book You should of course consider all legitimate treatment courses, but I'm firmly in the camp of science and modern medicine, so I thank the giver of this advice for caring about me so much, and letting them know that I am very comfortable with my decision given that I really do understand this stuff.
Super reliable source: I'd be remiss if I did not recommend an outstanding book: The Emperor of All Maladies: A Biography of Cancer. This is not a self-help book, not how to avoid cancer by eating right, or anything like that. This is a deep background on cancer, and it's absolutely fascinating. The author is an oncologist and a damn fine writer: he won the Pulitzer Prize for this book.
It's really for the general public, not just cancer patients; I had read it 5 years ago, then re-read it when this all hit the fan for me, and understanding how cancer works (and how cancer medicine works) can go a long way to removing a bit of the mystery of this disease. Mysteries are scary: this book helps. Your close circle should all read this book.
And as I write this, I discovered that Ken Burns has created a documentary based on this book: this I gotta see!
Accept help from friends
To the extent that you really can use some assistance: a ride to a medical appointment, somebody to cook for you or make a run to the grocery store, to sit with you in chemo for company. Accept their help.
People commonly wish not to be a burden, but this is not the time for that. You're dealing with cancer, you have people who want to help you, and it's a gift to them to accept their help.
Really, it's ok for this to be all about you for a while. Own it!
Consider making yours a public journey
Everybody gets to decide if or how to share a private medical condition, but for me, it was helpful to share this with my wide circle of friends on Facebook.
Unless this is truly a confidential concern shared only with very close family, your friends are going to wonder how you're doing, and regular posts make it really easy to keep them all in the loop. You'll still get asked about it, but it saves a huge amount of time trying to remember what you told to whom.
This is extra helpful if you actually could use assistance: you can post your request for help, and you'll likely receive numerous offers.
So many friends have told me how much they enjoy following my progress, reading the geeky stuff, and how much they want me to keep posting it.
In addition, colon cancer is highly preventable, and we can use our experience to encourage others to get their colonoscopy. I've had many friends report they finally got off their (ahem) butt and got it done. Maybe we can save a life?
But this is a very, very personal decision, and the only one to whom you owe complete details is your doctor (though a spouse is a close second).
Expect to feel overwhelmed sometimes
Most people in this position had it drop upon their heads suddenly and unexpectedly, and it's an enormous amount of stuff to just absorb. The combination of the unfamiliar medical information, the unpleasantness of the regimen, and the wonder what your future holds—all of this is normal.
Added to that are those with a limited local support system or with unusually bad reactions to treatment (or with grim prognoses), it's easy to see how this could give anybody pause.
Share your journey with trusted friends, ask lots of questions of your doctor and nurses, and do what you can to clear up mysteries: these all take a weight off. And a good cry now and then doesn't hurt either.
Almost everything about this Tech Tip is here to help make it an easier journey for you; feedback is welcome.

The FOLFOX6 Chemotherapy Regimen

Variants of the FOLFOX regime is pretty much the standard of care for colon cancer at most stages, and because my surgeon believes he got all the tumor, my chemotherapy is adjuvant therapy, which is just insurance in case bits are brewing elsewhere too small to be detected.

The FOLFOX protocol is 12 rounds of two weeks each, where you'll visit an infusion center on Day 1, spend a few hours getting some of the drugs, then go home with a pump attached to your port, then return on Day 3 to be disconnected. The rest of the time you recover. Rinse and repeat.

The three main meds of this regimen are:

I saw my oncologist once a week for the first couple of rounds, but he made it every other round once I settled into a good rhythm.

My doctor also put in an order for standing blood tests which I had to handle on my own with a local lab. These are in addition to the infusion-day blood tests they run automatically.

Variations abound: I am on FOLFOX6, but there's also FOLFOX4 and FOLFIRI, and there will surely be others available. The ones I named are all on a similar two-week cycle, but I'm only really speaking of FOLFOX6 in this tip.


Your Port

Because FOLFOX therapy requires you to take home a pump for a couple of days, there's no way it could ever work with an IV line in the crook of your arm or in your wrist. It would be a mess.

So I believe the standard of care is to have a General Surgeon implant a "Smart Port" (aka Port-A-Cath, a few other names too) under your skin in your upper chest, which provides easy access to the bloodstream.

Mine took 10 minutes to implant under local anesthesia, it's common for patients to drive themselves to and from the procedure: easy business.

You can't really see the port itself in this picture, I've marked the location with a red circle, and the two incisions were used by the surgeon to make it so:

Smartport in my upper right chest

The flouroscope shows it inside:

Smartport - xray view

I really like my port; no getting poked in the arm every time. For the first coupla days after implantation I had to cover it while showering, but it was easy to manage.

I call mine "My USB port", and note that it's titanium for enhanced performance :-)

There are two action items I'd like to recommend regarding infusion day with your port:

Easy access for the nurses
The nurses have to get access to the port a few times, and it really helps if you have a shirt that can unbutton all the way. They can work around a t-shirt, but it's more awkward for them (and you).
I've made it a point of wearing a Hawaiian shirt every time just to liven up the place: the nurses (and patients) seem to enjoy it, and it's all part of a positive attitude.
Here we see the infusion pump (not the take-home one!) hooked up to my port, along with my festive attire:
Wearing a Hawaiian shirt
Numbing your port
The port is just under the skin, and it's pierced with a special non-coring needle, and this is more or less like most other IV access pokes.
Ask your oncologist if EMLA cream is right for you: this is a lidocaine type numbing cream you put on the skin over your port around an hour before your infusion to numb the area. It's cheap and safe and many oncology practices prescribe this automatically.
Mine didn't, and I was thankful a nurse friend suggested it.
You should cover the cream to keep it off your clothes, but a regular Band Aid has a cloth-type patch that will soak it up instead of going into your skin, so I use the same bandages that hospitals use:
Tegaderm product package
Tegaderm bandages; about $6 for a set of 8 (get 2 boxes to cover 12 rounds).
You'll just put a small dab of the cream in the middle of the clear sticky area and put it on your port. The nurses see this all the time.
Update: I understand that some infusion centers use a numbing spray on the port prior to puncture, which achieves the same thing.

Update: One patient who had his port installed the same place as mine has reported pain/discomfort when turning his head, apparently because it's tugging on the tube under the skin. You can't really see the tube under my skin, but you can under his. I don't know if there are different techniques used by different surgeons, if his was done poorly, or if I just got lucky.

Update Oct 2018: My port was on the right side so didn't interfere with the seatbelt for driving—yes, I drove while connected to the pump—but a helpful reader who had hers on the left side found that a kind of padding around the seat belt helped.

Yes, of course there is such a thing: Chest Buddy Seatbelt Cushion (link to Amazon)

The Infusion Cycle

I have experience with two infusion centers in Orange County, California, but there are likely many variations; you'll get the lay of the land with yours at your first visit.

Day 1 - infusion
I show up at 8AM at the local infusion center, and on this day you're pretty much dealing with nursing staff, not doctors. These are specially-trained oncology nurses, plus there are often nursing assistants and possibly even volunteers.
You'll step on a scale as you enter because the chemo meds are based on height and weight, then off to a comfy chair where routine vital signs are taken.
A nurse will access your port with a special needle, and they do this one time only during your visit. It hurts just for a second, it's no big deal. The port is great.
The nurse will draw blood samples for testing to make sure you're healthy enough for chemo: if your bloodwork is out of whack, they'll call the doctor to see what they want, and in some cases they may defer your infusion entirely until things normalize. I've been deferred twice (so far) for low platelets, a week each.
Then come the meds:
  • IV Saline for hydration while waiting for the labs and the pharmacy.
  • If labs are good, pre-meds start: Zofran (ondansetron) for nausea, plus a steroid to help the Zofran. This is maybe 20 minutes.
  • Then 2-hour infusion of Oxaliplatin and Leucovorin.
  • Flush the line.
  • They hook me up to the take-home pump with Flourouracil, put it in a fanny pack, make an appointment for disconnection on Day 3, then I hit the road.
The whole time I'm sitting in a comfy chair with my laptop, I don't feel anything from the meds, they bring me water and snacks and check on me: it's really quite pleasant.
My typical infusion Day 1 is around 4.5 hours, but it was higher before we all got into a rhythm. Allowing for 6 or 7 hours for your first time might not be a bad idea: there's lots of 'splaining going on.
Some patients have visitors to keep company, I didn't need that or really even want that: it's nice quiet time for me to get some work done.
Note that not all patients are in there for the same thing, not even all of them are chemotherapy patients. But you'll start to recognize a few of the patients over time, and of course you'll get to know the nurses really well.
Home days 1/2/3
I'm toting a pump around for 46 hours, and because I work at home it really does simplify my life. It's no problem to go out, I just have a tube running from the fanny pack to my shirt, and nobody's ever asked me what it is.
I did put orange racing stripes on mine to make it go faster :-) and it a bit more festive, and I've never been self-conscious about it while I was out and about.
Showering is inconvenient but doable: more on that later.
Sleeping wasn't any problem for me mechanically, in part because I also wear a CPAP mask for apnea, so this didn't make it any worse at all.
But because the steroid causes insomnia, I always take a sleep aid on days 1 and 2, at least.
Day 3 - Disconnect
I return to the infusion center 46 hours after my pump started, and it's a brief visit: the nurse flushes the line, disconnects the port and covers it with a bandage.
Here is where there can be variation: in my case, I get a shot of Neulasta, a "colony stimulating factor" that boosts white-cell production in the blood to make up for the collateral damage from the chemo.
Neulasta is an amazing molecule, but it's crazy expensive, something like $5000 per shot, and not all insurance covers it. There are other therapies and some patients just choose to skip it in any case without consequence.
I have skipped Neulasta once as an experiment, and at the start of the next round found that blood work was a little low but still ok for infusion. Always follow your doctor's guidance on this.
Then it's time to go home after making the next infusion appointment, a free man without pump in tow.

Now the active part of the cycle is over, so it's biding your time until the next round. Everybody responds differently, but for me I found the neuropathy symptoms starting on the first day, with nausea and yuck kicking in late day 3 and all day 4.

Once the "off" week arrives, there's essentially no more yuck for me and only very minor neuropathy side effects, but I still write this all down every day.

Let's drill down to some side effects.

Side Effects

I believe that everybody has some side effects, there's just no escaping it, but there's a very wide variation in body response and seriousness of side effects.

My understanding of chemotherapy is that FOLFOX is not nearly as unpleasant as other kinds of chemo (breast cancer, for instance, is a much worse experience than this), so in some respect we have it easier than many others.

My doctor has told me, and I have confirmed elsewhere, that severity of side effects does not correlate with effectiveness of chemo. I always took this to be a relief that you did not somehow have to "hope" for a bad time in order for the chemo to be effective.

Hair loss
It is uncommon to lose your hair under FOLFOX; good news! There may be some thinning, but I still have a full head of hair after 9 rounds.
I couldn't care less about my own hair loss, but understand this is a very emotional issue for many, and we can be thankful we are generally spared this.
In regimens for other kinds of cancer, hair loss can start on round one.
Nausea and Yuck
Everybody expects nausea during chemotherapy (and radiation if your regime includes it; mine doesn't), but this doesn't go far enough to describe it.
The "Yuck" is an overall feeling of malaise, a crappy lousy feeling that makes you feel bad all over even without the nausea, and for me it starts mildly on Day 1.
I've been at a loss to describe it, and the closest I can come is that it's a bunch of prodromal symptoms that never materialize: you feel a headache coming on but don't get the headache, you feel the flu coming on but don't get the flu.
It's just a big bundle of yuck that you really want to go away.
Peripheral Neuropathy / Cold Sensitivity
This is the one to pay attention to: it's a tingling or pain in your hands and feet, often provoked by cold, so if you reach into the fridge to grab a can of soda, you'll feel a nasty zing of pain in your fingers.
Caused by the oxaliplatin, the cold sensitivity shows itself while drinking a cold drink: it feels like liquid cactus in the back of the throat and is very unpleasant. I've switched to drinking room-temp water, and even that sets it off sometimes.
IMPORTANT: though nausea and yuck goes away completely after chemotherapy is over, the peripheral neuropathy is cumulative and is likely to persist after therapy ends, possibly fading away over months. And for some, the symptoms become permanent. Yikes!
This is why it's so important to keep really good notes of how you feel in every round and report it to your doctor so they can modulate the dose down, especially if the symptoms continue into the "off" week.
The doctors typically speak of "activities of daily life", such as buttoning a shirt, but for me, the peripheral neuropathy mainly impacts my typing on a keyboard; that's my whole life (as I type this now, my hands are cold and tingly, and it definitely slows me down).
In my case, these symptoms were troublesome enough that my doctor reduced the oxaliplatin to 75% by the fifth round, and to 50% ih the tenth round, and it helped a lot. We're basically playing "chicken" with oxaliplatin by planning for how it will be six months after chemo.
Update for round #10: Up to this point, all the neuropathy symptoms were acute, in the sense that they emerged right after infusion, and then faded as the round progrssed. But my Round #10, the chronic neuropathy symptoms started to come into play: these are milder but hang around longer and are not so related to cold. It's hard to describe, but it just feels like this is the kind of thing that will hang around longer.
These symptoms are not troublesome for me at all, but their emergence lags the treatment, and we expect them to continue growing even after chemo stops, after which the curve tips over the top and heads back down. The big question is how far down will it go. We'll find out.
The good side, though, is that cold sensitivity to liquids completely went away, so I was able to drink ice water at any time, and I suspect that better hydration may have helped make round #11 easier for me.
Update for Round 12: the neuropathy has increased markedly, and it's for sure not related to cold sensitivity. It's become painful and unpleasant, though not enough to keep me from my work. I do expect it to continue to ramp up after the yuck is over, but we have no way of knowing how it will progress.
The main impact has been trying to sleep: toes are very sensitive to even the light touch of sheets, and it's not easy to get comfortable.
Mouth sores
This didn't happen to me, but it's common enough that the nurses ask me every time. They will recommend some kind of saline rinse to have ready in case the problem arises, but I've not been there myself.
Weight gain, but not really
The steroid they gave me during Day 1 infusion caused water retention, so I would typically gain 5 or 6 pounds over 2 days (!!), but it always goes away right after. It's alarming but not something to be concerned about (but still report it to your doctor).
Day 1 Insomnia
Our friend the steroid will also keep you crazy wide awake on day 1, it's just one of the side effects, and many can make use of a sleep aid. In any case, talk to your doctor in advance so you're ready on the evening of Day 1; some sleep aids are more appropriate than others.
Constipation / Diarrhea
Your colon has been through a lot during surgery, so you've probably already gotten a fair handle on your own digestive system, but the chemo will definitely stir it up with one symptom or the other.
Patients who get diarrhea have to pay special attention to remaining hydrated, but it never happened to me. I had the "slow" version of symptoms and constipation was an ongoing struggle for quite a few rounds.
It's hard to describe just how big a quality of life issue severe constipation can be: chemo hasn't made me throw up due to direct nausea, but constipation has. It can get really bad, especially with the speed-up/slow-down that comes with use of the very effective Milk of Magnesia.
Fortunately, my family doctor put me on a regimen that worked super well for me, so I've been a "regular guy" for weeks now, and it's just so nice to have this be a non-issue.
I'm hesitant to spell out the actual regimen because only your doctor can evaluate you properly, but it involved Miralax and Colace.
Lhermitte's Phenomenon
This one is apparently uncommon, and though it's somewhat related to the peripheral neruopathy, it's not the same. For me, it manifests itself as a curious sensation on the soles of both feet when I nod my head. Really!
This phenomenon is rooted in the spinal cord in your neck, and though my version is really mild, it can be much more pronounced as it manifests as a shock running down your spinal cord and down your legs.
My understanding is that it only happens later in the regimen (if at all), and it's generally benign, but always report it to your doctor if you feel this head-nodding-provoked sensation.
Other side effects
There are many other possible side effects, you'll get the whole list from your doctor and/or nurses, and it's good to keep an eye on this.
I am not touching on these other symptoms because they didn't happen to me, so there's not much I can really offer.
But I strongly recommend you make notes of everything you experience, even if it's not on any list, and report them to your doctor: your journal will help you get more comprehensive care.

Learning your cycle

Each chemotherapy cycle is two weeks long, with infusion on Day 1, disconnect on Day 3, and all the rest working your way to the next round.

For me—and everybody is different—the very first days 1 & 2 were no problem at all, and when I saw my oncologist on day 3, I was thinking: this isn't so bad! For some patients, a mild, low-level yuck is all they get.

Then the evening of day 3 came and took a nasty turn, and day 4 was truly miserable. Very unpleasant nausea, overall yuck that lasted all day spent mostly in bed. I couldn't really sleep, just rested and felt crappy.

The more worrying thing for me: is this just one bad day, or the windup to a bad week? Thankfully it was the former, with symptoms winding down on Day 5 (Friday for me), and mostly recovered by the weekend. The second "off" week was really quite nice, I was pretty much my old self and was able to participate in a routine life until the next round.

The second round was much like the first in a strictly clinical way, but because I knew what to expect, that made it much easier. But the symptoms are cumulative, so round 2 was worse than the first, and—again—this is where you should be keeping notes for your doctor.

After one or two rounds, you'll have a sense for what your cycles are like: How bad are your bad days? When are your bad days? How is the digestive tract reacting? How are you sleeping?

These are things you get a handle on with experience and with consultation with your doctors, and with that you'll be able to plan.

You will definitely find that your whole life revolves around where you are in your cycle: busy all Day 1, plan for nothing on Yucky Day 4, and plan on that super fun party on day 12 because you feel great (or whatever works for you). I have a big red "X" on all Day 4s in my calendar for the rest of my treatment so I know whether I can go to that fun party two months from now.

Regarding alcohol; your doctor will probably recommend avoiding all booze for the first 3-4 days of your cycle: your body (and liver) are going through a lot, and it's better not to add more challenges.

My doctor told me I could drink on the "off" week, but I mainly choose to save that only at the end of that week even though I feel fine for the rest. I have a weight-loss goal in order to receive a knee-joint replacement due to arthritis, and the reduced alcohol has helped.

Nausea and Yuck Control

The doctor will certainly prescribe an anti-nausea medicine, probably Zofran, but there are others, and if your yuck produces difficult bowel issues, they'll certainly help on that front too.

Zofran pills are available in multiple dosages (4mg and 8mg, at least), plus there's a version that you can dissolve under your tongue if the nausea is so bad you can't keep your meds down. I don't care for the dissolve one because it leaves a lingering taste in my mouth, and I've never had problem keeping food or meds down.

A number of friends have suggested ginger in various forms: gum and teas and ale, mainly, and they do help take the edge off the nausea. And because of the cold sensitivity, taking a hot ginger-lemon tea is just a pleasant beverage in its own right.

But there is nothing the doctor can give you that will take away all the yuck, and it's on this topic that your friends will come out of the woodwork to ask: have you tried cannabis?

I did my first two rounds strictly by the book, and though the nausea control helped some, the rest of the yuck was just awful. So with great reluctance I decided to go down the cannabis road, and I'm very glad I did.

Cannabis is legal in California for both medicinal and recreational purposes, and both my primary care physician and oncologist totally approved this: you do what you need to do on the bad days.

The two main parts of cannabis are THC, which gets you high, and CBD, which eases nausea and pain. Both work together to reduce the yuck on the bad days. There are strains and varieties, but I've not gotten enough experience to know about them.

My first foray was into edibles, small chocolate squares with 5mg each of THC and CBD, but I didn't find that it worked well for me. It takes quite a while to kick in, and I probably just didn't take enough.

IMPORTANT: You really have to be careful when taking edibles for the first time, try a small dose and then wait two hours before trying more. Not kidding.

It's remarkably common for a novice to take something now, take more after 30 minutes when they don't feel anything, and again after 60 minutes. But at ~90 minutes it all starts kicking in and you become a local YouTube star dancing on the table in your underwear.

Seriously, first forays into edibles must be done carefully until you know what you're doing. Ask the dispensary shop for guidance on this.

I hate cigarette smoke, so I tried the vape pens which don't cause the cough so badly, and this took a while. There's a huge variety of product in the vape pens, and it was several of them before I found the right product and how to properly dose myself.

The first time I used a vape pen, I was sucking on it like it was a really thick milkshake, a large effort that made me think I was doing it wrong, but it turns out I was doing it waaaaaaaaaaaaay right, and I got completely blotto within 60 seconds and just crashed in bed.

It wasn't at all unpleasant, so I see why people do this on purpose, but it was clear this was way too much for me, and a smaller dose worked better when the real yuck came around.

Because I didn't know any better, the original plan was not that far off from just getting completely stoned on the awful Day 4 so I could sleep it off: I hated the idea, but my doctor said this was fine, and it helped a lot.

Remember: the CBD is for the nausea and the THC high is for the yuck, and on the bad days you really need them both. Chemo is not just about nausea.

But as I studied the cannabis market, I kept learning more about it and trying new products, and I've really dialed it in with a product that works super well, it doesn't make me cough, and I can actually work on my Yucky Day 4!

Taking a single hit when I feel the yuck come on is something I can only barely feel in my head, so it's not like I'm getting high, but I just feel better. I'll do this several times a day.

The product I like is from a company called "Dosist" (dosist dot com; I won't link to cannabis sites from my consulting website). They make a number of blends that mix up the THC, CBD, and sometimes flavors, but I settled on the "Relief" blend that has a THC:CBD ratio of 2:1.

Dosist vape pen

The vape pen itself has no buttons, you just take a draw like with a cigarrette, and it delivers a 2.25mg metered dose in about 3 seconds, vibrating slightly to let you know it's done. There's a kind of vapor expelled, but there is no "pot" smell left behind for somebody to notice.

It's easy and reliable to use, and this blend has been perfect for me, and I am encouraged that it will make my remaining rounds easier.

I've also started with the Dosist "Sleep" blend, which is mostly THC, and it does a great job of putting me out at night so I get a good night's sleep. The added THC makes me cough more than the "Relief" blend, but this stuff has just been easy and reliable.

As with the edibles, I also think it's a good idea to practice this the first time when you feel good: you need to know how your body reacts to this new medicine, what dose to take, and how it makes you feel. Doing this for the first time while in mid-yuck means it's harder to get that know what caused what.

But unlike edibles, the vape takes effect right away, within a couple of minutes: you don't need to wait two hours to take a second hit if the first one didn't dod anything. It's best to ask your "budtender" (the person behind the counter at the dispensary) for advice as a newbie.

Having a trusted friend at hand is a good idea too, just to keep an eye on you (perhaps with camera at the ready!).

Update for Round 12: the peripheral neuropathy has gotten really uncomfortable, and I tried rubbing in a CBD-based balm, but it made no difference after repeated attempts. I don't know if a THC-based balm would make any difference but ought to try it.

Online research suggests that smoking/vaping of various kinds of cannabis might help, but it's not bad enough for me to go there; I've not vaped since day 5 of my 12th round.

"The Stigma"

Side note: I've never done recreational drugs in my life, and the casual tone above - taking a hit, getting stoned - did not come easily to me. I was very uncomfortable with the whole concept, the stigma was strong with me, but I really just got over it.

It helps me, it's medicine that my doctors approve of, and that's all what I care about. When I'm on the Bad Day and a hit makes me feel better, it does not cross my mind that I'm doing something wrong. Holy crap no.

I got comfortable enough to post this on Facebook, which was a fun conversation to have with my friends; I got 100% support from everybody.

Perhaps you're in a position where you can't be seen going down this road; I hope you find a way to do it privately.

As of Oct 2018, I haven't used cannabis since day 4 or 5 of my final round, and don't expect to again: I was thankful it was available to me, but it's not something I care to use again.,

Random tidbits

Not everything exactly fits in a category, so these are just some notes in no particular order; I wish I'd known a bunch of these things.

Insure you have nausea meds before your first infusion.
Virtually all chemotherapy patients need antinausea medicine on hand at home—Zofran is very popular—but it requires a prescription.
This is an automatic part of the new-patient intake system for just about every oncologist, but balls do get dropped, possibly putting you in an unhappy place if the IV Zofran wears off on Day 2 and that's your bad day.
If you don't have an anti-nausea prescription by the time you're making your first infusion appointment, ask the nurse and follow up until you get the Rx.
Protecting your port in the shower
The requirement to protect your port from water makes showering more of a hassle, and unless you can go 3 days without a shower, you're going to have to find a way to do it.
There are many ways to protect your port, but I have found what works well for me: large clear-plastic water barriers, and they're easy to order from Amazon.com:
I put the 7" square right over the port, then put the 9" one fully covering that, then push all around to make sure it all sticks. You do have to stretch around to make sure that (say) reaching up to wash your hair won't tear stuff loose, but you'll get used to this over time.
These particular Shower Shields work well.
Shower just before you head to infusion
This is all highly subject to your own personal practices, but I'm a shower-before-bed kind of guy.
The requirement to protect your port makes that more difficult, so I always shower just before I leave for infusion at 7AM. This will last me through the day and night, so I'll go the hassle of a shower on Day 2.
Then, after disconnection on Day 3, I come home and enjoy a nice hot shower. You don't have to protect your port after disconnection.
As I get better with the hassle, I do sometimes take a shower every day, but it's nice to not have to.
Know your 46 hours
Remaining pump time That's the infusion time on the take-home pump, so it means that once your pump is connected, you'll show up 2 hours earlier, but 2 days later.
Example: pump hooked up at 12:30PM Monday, disconnect 10:30AM Wednesday.
Some pumps show the time remaining (see image to the right), but my first pump did not, and the Day 1 nurse didn't tell me about this or do the math. So I showed up for my disconnect appointment with an hour remaining, making me cool my heels until it expired.
It wasn't a huge deal to waste an hour, but it was completely avoidable. That never happened to me again.
Get dental work done before chemo
Your doctor will probably tell you to avoid non-emergency dental work, including routine cleanings, while you're undergoing chemo. Dental work causes systemic infections surprisingly often, I suspect because poking around in gum sockets where there's bacteria festering is likely to make its way to the bloodstream.
Because your immune system is compromised during chemo due to the reduced white blood cell count, it's wise to move up your routine cleaning before you start chemo.

Post Chemo

I'm writing this in October 2018, roughly 3 months after my last round - I feel great!

One of the first things I noticed was how great it is to regain control of my own schedule. During chemo, everything revolves around your two-week infusion cycle, so it's hard to plan events: will my friend's birthday party six weeks from now be during the "off" week? Will I get deferred a week for whatever reason, throwing the rest of the schedule off?

I still have medical appointments now and then: I expect blood tests every three months, plus a CAT scan every year to make sure stuff hasn't come back, but it's much, much more of an ordinary life now. You just can't imagine how great it is to regain control over this part of my life.

Around five weeks after my last round, a final blood test confirmed that I was in good shape—including a nice low CEA value—my doctor ordered removal of my port. They don't do this if there's some chance I'll need another course of chemo (which sadly does happen for some folks).

Surgery was quick and relatively painless, and I got to take the port home (where I thoroughly cleaned it!). The port itself is just a hair under 0.5" deep, and the removal scar was tender for a while.

My implanted port after removal

As I had been calling it my "USB Port" the whole time, including on the day of implant, I followed through by getting a tattoo to "label" the port just above the removal scar:

USB Symbol just above port removal scar

I've never been the tattoo type, but this just felt right. I've gotten no pushback, and I enjoy rocking out my geek nature.

That aside, the only real lingering effects are the peripheral neuropathy, the tingling and/or deadness in my fingers and toes. It's unpleasant but mostly doesn't impact my day-to-day life. My physician has had me try gabapentin, and then the crazy-expensive pregabalin (Lyrica), which so far aren't making any difference. This may be one of those things I have to live with until it fades away.

Stay Positive

You'll hear this from everybody, but it's true: a positive attitude makes a big difference, and it can literally save your life.

I'm fortunate that I'm naturally optimistic, I say the glass is two-thirds full, so it came easy to me to be upbeat during this whole process, especially since this is only "insurance" chemo because they don't think I actually have cancer.

Those with more difficult diagnoses, especially Stage 4, may well not have the same underlying glowing future, and even the most optimistic person will find it hard to be chipper on the bad days.

The best way I found to stay positive is to regain as much control of the process as I could, mostly revolving around understanding everything. Knowledge is power (and empowering), and I'm fortunate that I have a high capacity to absorb it.

Also, mysteries are scary, so if you find yourself worrying about something you don't understand, ask!

Almost all oncology centers can refer you to a support group; I didn't feel like I needed one, but others I know have found them very helpful because you're not so alone when you're not the only one. And getting practical tips for daily living, especially for the more advanced cancers, will improve your quality of life. Plus, you get a chance to help others.

Remember: if you bail on chemotherapy before your prescribed rounds are over (normally FOLFOX is 12), you've reduced your prognosis. Do what you can to find a way to stick with the program.


Grammar note: My use of singular they throughout as a gender-neutral singular pronoun is intentional.

First published: 2018/04/18 (my Round 8 Day 2)
Updated: 2018/10/06 (done for a few months)